Saturday, May 3, 2014

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Problems..

I'm not supporting Ellen every time she does something to hurt me cuz I'm better than someone at something, like to be safe.

Problem

Other posters are doing it, just to make sure or set a base line.

Problem

I don't want a relationship where someone else did something I supposedly didn't..
She's off on Friday to impress Ellen.  I don't want a relationship that drags on.  I can't impress Ellen.  I was nice, I just was upset and supposedly "slipped up" therein..  Ellen acted like she was making fun of me the whole show.  Like Bella.  They think it's making me look good, but no you have to pay the price.  You didn't let me act wild, off on something more important, I guess.

Problem

I think someone on IMDb is acting like they are talking about my future daughter.  @ maybe an older guy.

Problem

They won't stop these messages!  I can curse at you!

They put on water and ice.  I don't wanna think of their mess.

Problem

Is May 9th supposed to be the secret message to say the word nigger?  That's not nice and not right!

Issue

I wanted to post to Ellen that I think she acts afraid to say anything because people online do that.  It's hard to think of something appropriate.  Not just fluff.  What a secluded person!

Go "Giraffe" Yourself

IMDb - The Soapbox

There's nowhere to post.

What do you think of posters who act all into themselves, like gritting their teeth like they have braces and flashing around an old ID? I'm not gonna follow you around like sheep. I expect something else.. You guys are all like in a chain parade, blabbing off ignoring all the smart posts. Where online can you post every day and not be told it's spam? IMDb. But what do we have here? People in dramatic fights who don't have to do anything. A topic came up that was rather popular about posters not being good|liked. I just wanted to get something out there about you guys all being either devils or sheep. And being a devil..is that okay? A fallen angel? I don't care how long you've been online. Ellen DeGeneres acts like she's cool with this, too. You all just say you're the 1 sacrificing by not posting much and making us "chase after" you.

Meanie

Ellen thinks I wasn't proper cuz she had Mommy.

IMDb

I did say some posts gave me pleasure, but I do not have ill will.

Problem

I'M THE 1 STUCK IN THE HOUSE WITH MY MOM MAKING ALL THE ANNOYING NOISE!  SHE'S THREATENING AND HURTING ME.  SHE DON'T CARE.

Problem

Look at Ellen saying nothing is ever okay cuz I cursed.  Her messages bothered me.  I said that.

Issue

You think it's cool to be put down by everyone?

How Pathetic

That girl Bella Thorne who likes being a fun brat is not on.  She was the 1 being bossy and mean to me.  Ellen thinks that's right, and this is over me being wild with her cuz that's my personality.

I wonder..

Why is this involved?

So..

Why was this really posted?

Tired of Me

She thinks my friends are.

Problem

I am watching TV, the cops, and they influenced what they said.  How can I relax.  That sick weirdo is following me.  Ellen thinks she's younger than me.  I am not gonna be her Portia- that's sick.

Problem

Ellen is proceeding to take away other relationships.  How sick.  How selfish.  How greedy.  Or is that my mom?

You guys are crazy.  You ruined it with Ellen, you selfish beasts!

Liar

She is smiling on the inside that I was cursing and is acting like I lost a right to her.

Problem

How dare she think she can make a move like that.  I guess-she can't!  No one would approve of that move.

She doesn't have a technical default.  She's getting at me for cursing about the noises in my room and therein sporadically maybe getting upset at her like in the mix.  She did it?

She just says it doesn't mean anything, anyway.  No, I don't want her to stop liking me.  If she needed a break, she could say she needs 1.  People in Louisiana make mistakes like this.
  They just gaped at me.  These annoying people are bloodsucker bugs.

Problem

I'm being insulted.  Ellen always was happy about me, now she's not.  What if she doesn't come back?  Is she quitting?  She said it didn't matter what she did, and how is that my responsibility like that?

Problem

I didn't restart my computer screen.  Oh no!

Problem

They got my breakfast bar to spill.

Problem

I was lying on my sofa watching TV..

What's that Ellen acting all self-centered like I had to of onseted an attack ever?

I was upset, but I didn't happen to attack her.  You are so weird all acting like you should control what I do, "not talking back" when I'm an adult and you talk back to me like it doesn't matter.

Weird

Why does Ellen think I am bad?  I'm good.
I AM GOOD AND YOU NEVER GIVE ME A CHANCE
People want me to feel bad.

Don't.

Ellen sweats the small stuff.

Greed

The opportunity to do what Tim Burton says you have to do, to be famous, has been cut off for future successes.

Anger Control

Didn't I have a right to be dissapointed?

Pathetic

People who can't find cool friends'd rather gang up against normal people.

Confession

My dad says things just to fill time and to look good.

IMDb - The Soapbox

Recently Uncovered: 16 is the new ''adult'' cutoff age! Not 18|21.

I definitely felt a global push to start work at 14|15|16 and even earlier. The required classes stop then for those ahead in school. The only thing when you're 16 actually is English IV.

Who cares about celebs?

They don't care about us unless they're shit.

The Proppa (Propper) Thing

I am guessing middle-aged young adults want to let children confide in them.  I am an adolescent.

Friday, May 2, 2014

Problem

Ellen looks around to make sure no one thinks I'm good.  HOW DOES THAT MAKE ME FEEL=NO GOOD.  EVERYONE SAID I WAS PERFECT GROWING UP!  WHAT DOES THIS PARTY SAY?

Already Dead

All these things happen, and it can only help someone who's 16 or 17.

I am old and unfeeling, and angel in the sky, looking down on the Earth with keen-ness.

Bipolar

I am a little stupid, but you probably shouldn't say it too much.  Let's see if someone goes wacked and has to say it?  I can't afford to make amends to my speech too much.

Anyway, doesn't seem I'll ever be friends with Ellen again.  I won't feel okay, and I've already said how I feel.  It's just a difficulty with speech.  I'm not like that, liars.  People lied I was like that online.  Who cares?  Really?  Did that just put you under pleasurable influence no one else can feel?  You have a right to be an individual, too, though.

What the Freak

Why is Ellen so freakish?  She did not freak out when she was a younger TV celeb.

Don't take offense.  I don't even remember why I posted it, to be honest.  I know it's something that doesn't sit right.

People Who Need People

"I shouldn't be prowling around Ellen all the time and need to see people like in my e-mail - Beyonce and Jay-Z."  I never have fallen for them and realize Ellen is just popular.

Submission|Permission Not Granted

I will never submit to you.  So, don't plan on it.  I have no one!  Sometimes, people need a break in their life from someone, so don't plan on doing anything any different..?

Why are you so hard on about the past?  Perhaps, I should have thought to say that.  I explained my past.  I don't care about curse words, and I didn't do anything wrong to anyone.  I was upset and hurt, and no one cares.  They still hurt me secretly.

Ferociously Mad

All because of Nell Burton and Bella Thorne I lost a good relationship with Ellen.  I always grew up on top of things.

Problem

ELLEN IS JUST MEAN.

Somebody Help

I have no reason to be happy to my father.

Problem

I was upset and something set them off then my parents at the table and now annoying boys interfering with my life!

Problem

More abuse.. she's BEING MEAN TO ME EVERYWHERE WHAT DON'T YOU GET

Problem

Ellen is popping in and out about calling my future daughter a nigger.  Pretending it's just to be nice. She's never had anything to say since I followed her.

MAD

Ellen can't talk to my dad all the time and she joked about me.  I AM TIRED OF TYPING THIS TRASH.
YOU ARE EVEN JUST MAKING IT UP.  I SHOULD FORGET ABOUT YOU, IN SOME WAY.  YOU WON'T STOP TALKING TO ME IN MY ROOM AND YOU'D EVEN BLAME IT ON ME SPAMMING MY FRIENDS.
YOU GUYS ARE STICKS IN THE MUD.  I DIDN'T EVER ATTACK ELLEN.  SHE ATTACKED ME.  AND I GOT BIPOLAR.

PROBLEM

TIM BURTON RUINED MY FAMILY BY UPLIFTING..AND HAVING HIS.
YOU ARE CRIMINALS.  MY DAD IS A *** OFFENDER.
YOU WERE MEAN.  YOU ALL WON'T QUIT AND LEAVE ME ALONE AND LET ME HAVE A LIFE.
I'M PRETTY NICE.

Problem

YOU ALL RUINED MY CHANCE.  YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW THAT.

Problem

Why was Ellen acting mean to me on TV the whole time?  You can't listen to my dad's suggestion as that.  Also, don't bring Tim Burton and Johnny Depp and all their mistakes and racism into this.

On the Toilet

I am going so bad I wonder @ death.

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Unfortunately

I think Ellen is trying to get fired.  :|

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Weird Post

What do you think this was for?

Problem

I was struggling with my feelings, and they're bossing me around.

Issues

I don't mean to be mean..

They just loaded the page funny and I fell forward.  I feel r***ed.

Problem

There are annoying people on TV saying I'm from Pennsylvania and I'm the 1 whose impatient.

Problem

They said not to talk to a European, but they did!

Coping Skills

I have to be a bit more assertive away from insults I feel.  I wanna keep straight, but I just don't feel up to being dug into with secret messages.  If I say stop, I'll just lose it all.

Thanks a lot.

Who ruined my reputation and made all these younger people boss me around and stuff?  People are treating me like I am bad and ^unimportant^.

I know..

..you can't seclude me from the rest or the best of the U.S.  I see you welcome in people from Europe.  I don't really care.

You also misjudge my opportunities for how good I did.

I wasn't gonna bother, but it's a topic I'm interested in and it seems to be a question, as well as something I disagree with and you're probably sorry for.


Your head is in the clouds and right now you have nothing to say.

Problem

My mousse isn't coming out well enough.

Problem

Ellen is mean, sometimes.

Problem

I keep getting annoying messages that I see Ellen go over on the show, I think, like problems with the computer telling me the wrong thing.

Problem

Now, the Twitter notifications are messing up.  I wonder why this is being done.

Problem

My Blackberry Sync software opened when my computer opened.  It didn't say it was programmed to do it.  Anyone have these problems?  I think someone hacked this 1.  I get hacked a lot..

Also, why should I have to deal with these things and what's the harm in me telling people?  It does bother me, and they don't care.  I was wondering if anyone thought it made sense, guess not.


It might be being a stick in the mud, but it's the fact someone did it that bothers me.  They seem to do these things each day.

Problem

My parents arranged 2 washcloths for the table in a way that made me feel weird.  My dad kept typing annoying and so I threw the cloth into the sink and left before I got mad enough even more.  Let me explain, sometimes I hear annoying noises in Orlando etc. and it's made me very irritated, like people know I'm there, like think about chalk on a chalkboard or if you know of another example closer to it.  It shows you how the way people make noise can annoy some people, like sounding like messages.  It gets irritating and gets under your skin and you can't get rid of them watching.  It feels like you can't change your mood and you should go.  There are situations where you should leave when you in a bad situation.  Also, my pinky on my right hand was sticking out funny.

A Little Sad

I want to be an actor by then, but my mom wants to move back home to Indonesia after a Masters degree or 2.

Really Weird

These people are not like concerned about how I feel.  They want me to fight out stuff that I shouldn't even fight out or that isn't even what.  There is too much stress, and no one choses to make my thoughts important.  I'll have to make tags with important things for people to answer.

Issue

I think a poster on IMDb made another account just because I wasn't feeling well.  It's this poster who had old possibly Asian or Mongoloid parents.

What I Noticed

I went to Key West to be with my brother and relatives, then I failed school.

Pilates

I did a Pilates move!

Exercise

I got up and did a few more core workouts.

Trailer

For the trailer for Blended, Bella Thorne never posts the main 1.

link

Mixed Asian Hair

Lotta mixed Asians wish they were blondes.  Look at all the blonde 1/2 blacks.
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A Happy Couple

So, things like this I see happen.. Portia gets to have fun and rock out as a kid with Ellen, sorta like a VooDoo Doll.  That must be because she's not too too too much like way younger, so she probably has it as a dream come true.  What do you think?  Maybe, I can have some pretend daughters.  '}:]  I'm up for that thing, but I'm no movie star, not in a career yet that resembles that trust.

'Tis the gift to be simple, 'tis the gift to be free..

Yes, people in New Orleans are well taken care of, the kids, I found out.  What am I, now, shit? 8|  I am not trying to find an excuse to say "shit."  I was just being gregarious.

Like, they notice someone and like help them or that they look good.  They send signals of emotions, codes.  They don't have high expectations, so it really bowls 1 over.  They learn things no one else knows how to do-

Update - Life Problems

2 of my new shirts are missing.

Exercise

2-3 minutes of core workout.  They have a core workout thing at the mall..  $12.  Wasn't there when I got the yoga and Pilates 1.

It's almost time for bed anyway.

Oon the siide!

Who falls in love with something beautiful, music, and forgets to become an actor??

Real People

Was Ellen given 1st priority, meaning she lived where people want to make you happy?  Can you really look up to her, or is she really just the victim of popularity.  My mom made me good at gymnastics by putting me in at 1 3/4.

America

There's no race that hasn't assimilated to the American culture.

How nice! I've seen it!

A lady with a head wrap looked like Ellen DeGeneres.  Now, all the Middle Easterners are.  She moved like her.  A black person was there and stepped forward and smiled, female, thin.

Thursday, May 1, 2014

It's true! It was a lie!

Ellen DeGeneres would not feel too young to let someone look up to her who was younger than me by 10 years.  I was thinking about someone else.  Imagine, on the show, it's all good.  Why do you think the people born in Late Boom and their age appropriate kids are the only 1s to be like that?  Everyone would like to have that joy, etc.

Problem

They made it sound like a miracle of light I saw was technical "trash" but as if like my dad.

Issue

My mom kept bothering me, and made me think of the word k***, didn't mean it, and she ended up saying my babies would come out black.

Passive-Aggressive|Borderline Peers

I already said my peers deserved a chance.  You just wanna take away from me.  You say, "Yes these people did something," like I didn't know.  You just wanna get a relief from me when I am not able to nor would I force anyone to just pay attention to me.  I'm speaking in general.  People are always siding with people who are mean to me and saying I did something.  They are being racist and making things up and not acknowledging the way things were.  It's like my life had some sacrifices but I would get better, but instead you all go and "rescue" people who were mean to me and force it to putting me in the situation in a bad way.  Interesting, right?  Is this the kind of thing people wanna talk about with me, otherwise I am not worth it?  Who would I have to talk to, then??

TV

"The Ellen DeGeneres Show"

Her thing about cleaning dirty money was cute!

The person filmed on hidden camera was cute, as well.

I liked the girl in Kansas.  She was really sweet.

Seth Rogan seemed like a really nice guy with a really nice girl.  She looked so European.

The band from "The Voice" was really neat.

Christina Hendricks was very, very attractive!  She seemed nice as a person, as well.  Would be nice to know someone like that.  She was on a TV show for 7 and maybe will be 9 years.

Edit

I readded the Life Problems page.

Rankings

I'm most excited for kids born in 1997 to experience being the doll.  If not, you oughta remember the generations born in 2005.  I think my generation falls pretty low on the list.  It might be the lowest.

Other Races's Traits

Other races you beat at them for traits that are uncommon in your own, when in reality your race does it.  It's just something that's more obvious in another race.  I mean silly things, not color and an afro.

Edit

I took of the Life Problems page.

The Perfect Situation

My belief is in preparedness.  You can't put on a false cover.

If you are not European|Caucasian, you might want to say yes I am what I am and will not ever be what you are.  However, this depends on also if you're mixed.  There are accepted mixed people.  You are valuable as a person and member of another race.  You might feel alone in your special, high intelligence.

Issue

After "The Ellen DeGeneres Show" was over, I didn't see even the small clip of the end on the side.

Incessant

Ellen is incessantly pushing that everything be about her.  It's in a bad way because it's so often and she doesn't care if someone else is good or cool like her.  My apologies.. that's literally "what" happened, and I thought you reward good people.

No Right

No person has the right to make fun of me.

Problem

See, the fans are reading into Ellen's messages like they're all that.  I did post about if she looked drunk as a baby cuz she was French.  I forget what else, but we talked @ *** on IMDb..  People online are so slow.  We could have just talked about it rather than get all jealous.  I mean, shiny white hair, while the rest of us have charcoal and doodoo hair?  Naked photos as a kid paying so strange of attention to Mommy.  Nice mom.. Nice dad.. What's up with the kid?  A bit spoiled compared to others.  I was trying to make people feel better.  The drunk reference I was able to attach to the French blood.

So

How can you say what the secret messages were were polite?

These people are messing with my family.


Why would this post offend you?  I'm trying to protect my family.  I don't believe that me talking means what I say should be punished.  That's weird.  I already know that.. I mean it's the truth, and it's not the same for everyone in every case.

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Apology

Sorry all this Ellen this that.  I am merely bringing her up, now, trying not to.  It just was something I felt was important.

More Bangs and Short Hair

I am so glad that this helps people in some way.

Seriously

Why can't Ellen stop?  Is she really causing -all- this?  I don't see how she's a better person than me, just was treated like she wasn't Chinese.

Issue

I feel Ellen has stolen some of my youth-these mean messages, mostly sent by other people.  I specifically didn't wanna get riled over anything so I wouldn't gray, but I have had annoying people in my life as I've attempted to grow and change for the better.

Another "Insult.."

So, Emma Stone is like whoah I want Ellen, but I know there's some girl online.. who watches the show so maybe this is just warming up and it's not really my fault.

Problem

My dad's being annoying now.. as in hurtful and annoying..

Page - Life Problems

  • Someone was in on stealing my white and black socks.  They think it's because I asked my dad for expensive socks, and he didn't say no.  They also just added a new Yahoo! contact.
    • My dad said to remind him of something in an hour or so, and we're going somewhere.

Problem

Why is Ellen being nice to Bella Thorne when she has an attitude?  She's racist.  She won't let me be attractive.  She's sending me these secret messages.  That is a part of it.

Issue

They said I just said "dead."  Who cares?  And, no, I didn't!

You are mean, not me.

Another Annoying Post

I know why they posted this.  They are racist and trying to talk.

More Meanness

No, I didn't do anything.  You all won't leave me alone.  Did "Ellen" do this?

Another Suggestion

They're being weird now.

Problem

Why is this person attacking me?  Should I stop Following?  It's just disturbing.  He has no say in anything like that.  He's trying to topple down my mom.  He can't copy me like that, neither.  She kinda acts a certain way, at some times.  You can't categorize her as trash and because of me.  Ellen did that.  He brought it out in the open.  I don't enjoy this nonsense and childishness.  No one would do anything like that.  It's clear nothing really happened.  Even if it did, I'd say you do the same thing.  There are some differences and some things of more worth.. sorry if that puts you the wrong way.

The Tweet

..That Tweet I posted was made just because I was assertive like Bella Thorne, who's way bossy when she wants, like in her attitude.  No one cares.  This is so ^pathetic^.  Also, it's unnecessarily racist and weird and not my kind of thing.

Disagreement

The truth is I am not a bad person, and this would not have happened were it not for Tim Burton.  Tim Burton, people also changed in a bad way for some weird reason..

Upset @ Tweeters

This poster used to be nice.  Unfortunately, like Lily Rose, he started being mean like or because of Ellen DeGeneres.  Now, everyone is a little mean because of Ellen DeGeneres.  Doesn't that make you ^not okay^ and ^wonder^?

CD

Amira Willighagen's CD was quite enchanting!  Her voice is pristine.  Her expression is so valuable.  She has a kind heart.  She is so cute and it's so exciting!  I hope she keeps up her talents.  She released this CD quickly.  Perhaps she will do a Christmas album, in English.  :)

A Good Night

Well, I guess I had a better night than evening.  Let's keep things up that way.  I'll have to find something to occupy myself with.  Should I buy a book?  Nah, that won't keep me occuppied.  I can start some laundry.  Eat.  Back to bed.  Exercise and go for a jog later on.  Post on IMDb.  Turn on the TV to something nice.  I do wanna post on my blog, but I guess I need something else going at some times.  I'll probably go have breakfast soon.  I need to shower tonight.  I got preoccupied last night.  I kinda wanna lie down again.  Maybe until someone comes and eats supper.

So, I am very sorry for going bipolar previously.  I'm not really sure what happened other than that I'm used to being that way in some ways, like people making me mad here so much and "giving me practice."  A ha!  Something that's not my fault solely.  Well, let's hope I can keep to myself better.  This is crazy.  I bet Tim Burton or Johnny Depp did it, told people to "get it out" but not really.  They all wanna approach each other and see if they don't get mad.  It's an imperfect fuel for the fire.  Johnny Depp thinks we don't deserve him, so this is his way of washing his hands of good ideas.  It seems cheap and like he doesn't wanna work, and people have caught on.  He doesn't wanna actively aid people in their daily trials.  Because of him, people think this is his way of helping.  All I can say though is that yes he is a good actor and person and I don't know what could have come over his fans of the world.  Sorry, if you think I was insulting him and Tim Burton, but I'm sure they gave a hand in this weirdness.  They are both good people, maybe better than most.  Most people probably and depending on them cuz they're so famous, but they make fault with them and see they are not mainstream in every facet.  It is technically things they do I talk about, not just rambling on complaining.

Holland's Got Talent

I just got Amira Willighagen's CD.  $10 on iTunes.

So..

..if you know someone, you have a right to be mean?  Probably don't even know what that means.

Problem

My mom was swirling her foot around and my toe felt like it was cut out skin under the toe like in a circle shape.  See, she doesn't care.  This isn't right.

Problem

My dad is coughing hurting me sending messages that I have not felt, ruining things for my future kids.

What I Lost

How can you lose a person by doing something by accident?

Ellen acts like all this mean stuff has a reason naturally, but it doesn't.

I don't know anything about how famous people meet people, but obviously I wasn't in a rush at 1st to try.

Problem

My password didn't work.

Problem

Why can't I just meet Ellen as an adult and not my parents, esp. dad, meet her 1st, too, and ruin what Ellen was?  They aren't being considerate and following an etiquette.  They may have gotten personal.  That's cheating and lying, Ellen meets no one it seems.  Why would I lose my chance, like they killed her and it wasn't like I'd meet her?

More Problems

My browser is slow all of a sudden.  It's my favorite.

Also, I was nice to my dad.  If I don't wanna be mushy with him is fine.  In fact, I am not mushy.  You seem fixed on people older than you in my family and doing things in a way that hurts me.

How can you justify this?

Tugging at my thumb nail?  It's paranoying me.  Really.  It makes me terribly uncomfortable that you can orchestrate something like that on me.  You don't seem to care that I feel that way.  Nice people have their emotions in order.

I like to believe that exactly or not much really happened.  It is rather pathetic, and I see no excuse.  It seems it's being done for someone else, too.

Problem

It's funny you think I can be in trouble at 27 for private thoughts while anyway I grew up always being good.  People are mean to me and it bothers me even if I didn't do anything.  It's if I do 1 thing wrong but not often that people get mad.

Problem

There was something funny about adding a page on my Blogger.  It just showed 3 dots when I checked to publish the page.

Problem

I wanted you to know I do not agree with your doing illegal things to "punish" me at 27 when I am good and just get mad when you think it's okay to be mean to me.

YouTube in the home page didn't show my cover video loaded, and I think these people controlling my life, including some famous people, have something to do with it.

Cool or Selfish

Is it cool or selfish that people born around 1960 experience the glory that people born in the 1970s and 1980s should have?

People born in the 1960s and late 1990s always seem to be ahead.  The parental Late Boom grew up spoiled.

Welcome!

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